~BeBeto’s ParaDise~

The Moon’s Curse

Under the moon’s curse
Inside of a cold dream…

In a world without words, we speak of love
Until it reaches you someday
I want to melt the frozen over wish
From the lips that I embraced with arms covered in wounds
Because hey, if I abandon the beauty
Of the past when we loved each other
Then tomorrow, I can go to a more beautiful night

Under the moon’s curse
From inside of a cold dream
I want to take you away to afar
We can go anywhere
To a place where we may believe in love

With the methods that only belong to a child who doesn’t know pain yet
You are shutting yourself in
The first time when words of love were whispered into your ears
I want to lead your straightforward eyes astray
Hey, if I can embrace you
And make you warm
Then I don’t fear any punishments or sins now

Under the moon’s curse
I wake from a cold dream
I drift and connect with you
Let’s go everywhere
Until we gain the silence of love

Because hey, if I abandon the beauty
Of the past when we loved each other
Then tomorrow, I can go to a more beautiful night

Under the moon’s curse
From inside of a cold dream
I want to take you away to afar
We can go anywhere
To a place where we may believe in love

We can go anymore
To a place where we may believe in love
To the other side of night
Just with the two of us

Verse 1:

Snow is falling down

Chills that make us jump

With the joy

And the blessing we shared in life

Verse2:

Deep down inside

Shadow calls upon our souls

For the courage

And strength that keep us moving on

Bridge:

Just hold onto

The love that you have

Break all walls

And take the step to fly

Chorus:

You will give all the time

To someone you love

Try to turn around

See the smile that shinning onto you

And in this moment

Wanted to stay with you

It’s just because…..

Because it’s Christmas.

PS: I would like to dedicate this song to all my dearly family & friends! I love you all and miss all of you!

I heard someone say
"If there is love, there’s peace?
and one may agree with that, or not

Whenever I was in pain
you’d hold me closely
And it was in the warmth of those
arms that I felt peace

But then I stopped talking to you and closed
off my heart, this love was torn apart

*This time I don’t
let go off my heart
Because the power of belief
will set love free

When you helped me as a friend
I imagined our future together
And though I saw happiness in store for us
I did’t see my own issues

Though we said our promises would be our compass
we lost sight of the direction this love was going in

**Instead of waiting for a miracle
I want you to hold onto my hand
Because the power of belief
will set me free

You don’t have to fear this love
You don’t have to fear this love,this love

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This post is specially dedicated to all my friends in London! (**coz’ some1 is jealous…kakaka… I’m just kidding) I’m really enthusiastic to write some stuff about my ‘crazy’ or ’super crazy’ friends here! lol.. They are definitely down to earth friends, that no matter in what situation, they will be there to support, cheer me up and helping in every puzzlement! How can you ever find such truely sincere friends??? Well, I’m sure many people have come across friends that in the end, not considered as ‘friends’ at all! I’ve known my friends here since Year 1 of medicine. Indeed I’ve know them for 4 years. As years past by, I’ve grown to love them more and more. They have somehow become part of me. Guess I wouldn’t have so much fun in London without them! Hey, I really mean it! We have done lotsa crazy stuff, gossiping about people, Joking and laughing like nobody’s business!!! Those are the wonderful memories to be remembered! Well, this is how I’m going to describe some of my friends.. hehehe…

P & B: From the nick, you can deduce that this person is very brainy! She’s well known for her ultra sexy body shape with prominent female characteristic! kakakakaka… (u know i Know) She’s very chatty and nice friend to talk to. She’s also very good in giving advice! Very caring too! She can coOk ultra nice food! So guys out there, watch out for her!

ML: Well, she’s a pretty and intelligent gal! She is a great fren that always show care for her friends. Had a lot of fun memories together! She’s some1 that share the same interest as me—-> SE7EN! kakaka.. I guess the gal (P & B) mentioned above gonna faint by now! We jus watch unlimited korean stuff! kakaka.. That makes us feel like we were those ‘youngsters’ crazy over stars! She’s will become a good housewife too as all of us reckon… hehe…(P&B and I should be winking by now….kaka…. Some1 out there will be waiting for ya!kakkaaka..Anyway, dun take it seriously.. and sorry for the lame jokes over MSN) Pls do trust me!

YC: Wow, this is another super model with great height and body! She’s very very friendly and cares for her friends! She can cOok very nice food and make super nice cakes! As u know, she has long slender fingers that makes her an excellent pianist! I really miss those days when we played piano together! Gosh.. I miss ya laksa!!! it’s so yummy!!! lol..I still remember those days when I came bak to london from colchester, I’ll be invading your place for the weekends! Hav lotsa fun Oh! Well, our hobbies are ‘crapping and gossiping’! kakaka..

SS: Fulah.. Talking about this cute gal, she really knows how to pose in front of camera and look very photogenic! Well, she’s definitely caring too just as the others. She gave me the impression of ‘lecturer wannabe’ and she’s really good at it! If she really becomes a lecturer in future, sure gonna be good ones! Well, both of us are well known for the short legs.. Sobsob (though i actually have shorter legs compared to her)…kakakkaa…We must ask the rest to slow down the pace eh! lol…Anyway, she’s jus another intelligent gal.. Hey, dun be stress stress Oh!

JB: She’s well known to be the sister of YC. ANyway, just another pretty and sexy model, with long legs. She’s always smiling every where! Indeed a happy gal! Seems very enthusiastic! Very intelligent too! OIi…i didn’t actually get to spend much time with ya! However, i had so much fun with ya the other time when u came down to penang! We’ve got lotsa photos at the beach! kakaka…

There are many other friends who I would like to mention too but it will seem kinda endless.. Though i dun mention here, it doesn’t mean I dun love ya all! Thanks to all of ya for being such a great fren Oh! Well, I’ll just dedicate the song below ‘ Sweet dream ‘ to all of you… Just as the last sentence ‘ Because I love wherever you are’… Sarang ha ni ka.. Enjoy!

I see you breathing heavily
the one person who loves my warm embrace
if our eyes meet I hope my tear doesn’t fall
you smile first, but I smile bigger
it wont be accomplished, I’ll start with looking towards your back
its okay if it gets too late, I’ll try to get closer to you
all the pain I’ll get from you, I’ll just keep it in
because all of it is memories
thanks for always living in me
because I have you who wants to do everything for me
I dream too much but will that affect it?
im just a foot away from you but I just sigh
even if a hard doll bruises me
like a lie, I want it more
like the sound of breathing, your name flows with it
every day I hide and pray for that one wish
all the pain I’ll get from you, I’ll just keep it in
because all of it is memories
thanks for always living in me
because I have you who wants to do everything for me
I dream too much but will that affect it?
I have no regrets because the world brought you to me
I don’t listen to anything else and I wont leave
only for you I’ll cry and laugh
its okay if I wait long, I’ll try to be happy
because I love you wherever you are

In this MV, there’s english subs and I could appreciate the songs better! Fighting, Se7eN!

WEll,being influenced by someone’s blog, I decided to write something here too! hehe..Basically, I’m going to talk craps! Ok,to start with, I’ve just recently watched finish a korean drama called ‘First Love of the Prince’! Here goes my question…Who cherish their first love till this moment?? I suppose a number of people would say ‘yes’ but more people will say that they had totally forgotten about it or perhaps they said it just to pretend nothing had happened before, as the first love had broken their hearts too much??! Too bad for that…  However, it’s really lucky to those people who had the greatest time from their 1st love and they ended up together for the rest of their lives. Not many people could end up this way! Love is too complicated! It’s not just a simple ‘I love and you love and then, be together. Sometimes, there are too many obstacles that come along. Well,to be honest, I barely can remember when was my first love. Ok,maybe I shouldn’t blame my bad memory. I should say who was my first love or who is my first love? Had I met someone that I truely love??? Hey people, don’t get me wrong. I’m not a ‘player’ kayz.. :P  Eh, at least I don’t play around with people’s precious heart! I’m quite loyal 1 (hehe.. kinda perasan case). Well, if i really found someone that I truely love, I’m sure i’ll be loyal lar…as long as my partner is sincere too! Oh ya, I must make myself clear that I don’t like ah peks!!! *winks* Wow,seems like I’ve been crapping way too much tonite! Perhaps some inspiration from that drama or being a ‘kiasu’ after reading someone’s blog? kakakaka… Must keep my blog up-to-date lar..! If not, my blog really gonna berkarat liau! hehe…Anywayz,it’s new year 2007 dee! (since 3 hours ago!) I would like to take this opportunity to wish every1(especially my family and best best friends) a very happy new year 2007! Have a great year ahead of you! Feels like we are getting older dee!!!!  Aja Aja Fighting for the new year!

(Conclusion) To clear things up, I’m just crapping nia the whole way thro’. Cerita ini hanyalah rekaan semata-mata untuk di baca oleh penonton-penonton atau pembaca bLog! haha.. GOsh,bad malay language! Took me 15mins to write up a sentence! Trying to make it sounds like those TV programmes back in M’sia! hahaha.. Alrite,end for now.. Terima Kasih…

I Will Do Well - Se7en

I’m loving you, the words you just have to believe
My small words that gets mixed up as a lie
I’m missing you, the words that sound like an echo
My small words that shout and shout into empty space

Why do I…
At first smile when I’m in front of you
but when I turn around, why does it hurt?
If I must be hurt, I’ll endure the pain
Even if I’m miserable and want to lean on you, I’ll be patient
If I have to throw something away,
I’ll throw it all away without hesitation.
Even the last of my well-kept pride
Everything…
Even a little spec of memory that I won’t forget
I wonder if it’s only a burden…
I wake myself up from absent mind-ness
Our photo album with our fingerprints on it
I said it’s the only thing that has my happy self in it

You once said that I was the only love in the world
Why can’t you say it anymore?
If I must hurt, I’ll endure the pain
Even if I’m miserable and want to lean on you, I’ll be patient
If I have to throw something away,
I’ll throw it all away without hesitation.
Even the last of my well-kept pride
Everything…
A number that I can’t even count (every night)
I poured a handful (of just tears)
I don’t know whether it’s time to comfort me or time to forget you
Even if I have to act crazy, I want to yell that I love you
So that you can remember me among your many memories
I’ll cherish the words ‘I can wait’ in my heart
I’ll save and hold onto it until it wears out
If we can start again sometime in the future
I have one thing I want to tell you
Whole-heartedly… I’ll do well…

MY fav song

WEll, what a wonderful day to start with Never to forget that it’s Friday the 13th. All that I’ve hoped for was a short and relaxing day and be back at home as soon as I’ve finished for the day. Well, I wasn’t very enthusiastic in getting in to the JH centre today…but indeed indeed….i went in just for the sake that my consultant would be there for the meeting this morning! Ok, to be honest, I really like my consultant because he would never make me feel stupid and he’s so interested in teaching me stuff! To me, he would be like a close friend rather than someone who might intimidate medical student. What so ever, I just could not concentrate in the meeting this morning! Not even a single word has gone through my sense. All of a sudden, I was thrown with a question from the patient with regards to the ward! WEll, as I’ve said earlier, I wasn’t paying attention in the meeting! Being caught red-handed, I tried to remain calm and asked ‘that particular PD patient’, what is it? He was asking me if I had any issues to talk about and I guess anyone would know what I would answer! Correct! It’s the NO answer. However, I just don’t understand why he had to push it further on to make me talk more and in the end, just humiliate me! WEll, probably I was talking cock but what I came out with was the issue on the newly fixed TV where all the patients could sit down together and watch movies, while interacting with each other. Then, this PD patient just burst into laughter when I talked about the interactions between the patients. OK… At that time, I was feeling really stupid to try to encourage those patients to interact between themselves but it’s almost a mission impossible! They would all be arguing among themselves and making a big fuss over stupid stuff. Finally, I was glad that the meeting was over but then, I was supposed to go through a cognitive function test with my SHO. And without a surprise, the patient that agreed to let us perform the test on him had turned us down! He got so annoyed and walked out of the room, shouting that there’s no problems with his mental health! GOSH!… FOR HEAVEN SAKE! Ok, fine..I accept that! Patient has their rights to decline us on anything. After that, it was the peaceful lunch! Oh well, that must be the best time of my day. Just munching over my bread. When my lunch time ended, I had OSCE practice, where my consultant had asked one of the actresses in. Alrite, I should say that it was a good practice but as usual, the actress would give a hard time. I started to panic and had thought block! For a moment, I was actually panicking and had butterflies in my stomach! Thank god as I managed to get through with it. Ok, that’s not the end of the day! I was so so tired and exhausted by then but I’ve promised the SHO to attend for one of the on-call! WHen i met the SHO at H hospital, he said that only one person could follow him to the emergency assessment! And not to forget that my course partner was with me…I actually offered him to follow the SHO for the assessment while I followed a nurse over for home treatment visit! GOSHHHHH…… HOW COULD I BE SO STUPID! I should have just rejected from going for the home treatment visit! Alrite, I actually found it quite useful but not when I was with a very … indeed an idiot nurse! I JUST FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF! Ok, we were supposed to find the house of a patient. WE were quite lost but i saw the map and tried to guide her there! I was quite convinced of the direction but she didn’t seem to trust me. SHe was asking the pedestrians and in the end, they showed us some directions to ‘north pole or holland’! I was so blooody annoyed! If she just followed my direction, we would probably reached there in time and not searching around the area for almost 45 minutes! Well, just because she couldn’t read the map and that, doesn’t mean that I couldn’t read a bloody road map! Anywayzz…. we’ve got there in the end and as soon as after 2 home treatment visits, I was so eager to head for home and fair enough, it was 9pm! I was totally drenched out, while squeezing my brain cells to stay alert for the whole day. WEll well….after all, it’s Friday the 13th! Nothing more interesting than seeing those mentally ill patients to come out on their true self! kakakaka….

May you be blessed…